Yes, I am determined to heal and this really works. I see small improvements and today I'm more balanced. I did quite some redirecting yesterday and I'm still doing it today and tomorrow and so on. My will is very strong and I'm tired of depression and all those other symptoms. There is so much I want to do in this life time and I am going to do it. I'm angry with my mother because she didn't further me to be all I can be (It's so good to write this because almost everytime I find some more real reasons to be angry). The other day I finally realized what a special person I am. For the first time in my life I truly feel good about myself, at least for the moment. Not many people are as blessed as me, that's why I know that God has a special job for me to do. I'm blessed with strength, intelligence and of course a whole lot of other things (Man does it feel good to blow my own horn, HA, HA I even got jokes today).

All my life I walked around with my feelings half cut off, I never was able to experience the fullness of happy feelings, there always was a dark shadow there. Now there is only a little dark shadow there not a complete dark shadow, so I still have quite some redirecting to do. This is also what I have done wrong with my son. I wasn't able to be emotionally close to him. But you know this is also improving. Natalie

Thank you...keep blowing your horn and redirecting...yes you are a blessing.