I am VERY concerned if anyone on this list wants to end it all. This is
anger turned inward, and it needs to be constantly released and
redirected toward past abusers. Unless you are using the self help
meausures very consistently, and as described in the article, and are
finding relief from this depression, it is essential that you get
professional help and perhaps an antidepressant. I am not a doctor and
offer these self help meausures as one would in a 12 step program. They
are part of the ninth step described by Melody Beattie as "Dealing with
those who have harmed us." But I cannot replace professional help if
that is what is needed. Please read the disclaimer in the article.
Ellie