Hi Ellie,
I understand better and better every day the anger I do
have inside. I still have anger against the first therapist
who does psychodrama. I saw someone from the former
group therapy session and that night had a nightmare
about the therapist ( the third nightmare
about her ). In the dream, my whole spine went into a
spontaneous whip-likemovement that lurched my body forward,
out of my control...in reaction to seeing her in the dream staring
at me fiercely. So weird. I feel there is still material to be processed

with her not to mention my mother and the initial months of my life!
I am re-focused on working with my anger more
consciously. Thanks for your help.
Sharon

Sounds good... those nightmares are detox crises, the neurochemicals
that store repressed anger are streaming out of the neurons periodically

and helping you to heal. Try during the day to recognize every
excitatory
nervous symptom as a trigger that anger wants out--the beginning of a
detox crisis--and an opportunity to release and redirect anger toward
ALL past abusers (see the list of excitatory symptoms in the articles).
Take time to bang on the bed and yell at them, or just mentally tell
them
off in your head. The more often you can do this, the sooner you will be

post flood. There will be a grief period to go through when most of the
anger is gone, but eventually you will have peace of mind and sleep with

no more scary nightmares.
Ellie