My emotional progress has been topsy turvy.
Feel I am getting so close to ending the strangling
hateful relationship with my mother. Going through
body symptoms, many new and deep feelings. I am
switching therapists again when the last one told me
I 'had to' think of 'good things' about my mother
and kind of threw some very negative traits on me.
I can own them however it's not what I needed at the
time. I need to feel and process the hate and anger and
resentment. I've written some gory poetry to that effect
and that is what put the last therapist over the line.
Have been reading the papers of Margaret Chace and
Mary Starks Whitehouse both dancers and dance
therapists and what compassion toward the dancer,
child, mental patient, yuppy. A foundation of self-love
and community building through their work and attitude.
Great role models!
Sharon

How misguided...a therapist telling you to focus on good things.
Only now that all the repressed anger about my parents is
gone am I able to focus on the good in them.
And if you have any negative traits... congratulations!
They're probably an expression of your justifiable anger
and helping to heal you. Sounds like an expression of the
therapist's own anger to be judgemental.

I thought all my anger at misguided therapists and psychiatrists
was gone, but it surfaced again when I heard of psychiatrists
in Antwerp setting up a ward in a hospital for babies. Asked
what disorders they were goingto treat, one said the 'crying
baby syndrome.' Can you imagine... they want to stop the
only chance those babies have to heal. I ache for them.
Ellie