I have been feeling so much better lately. I'm whispering it.... Like I
want it to be a secret... I'm so much afraid it would be taken away from

me...
Remember you told me about a friend who rejected you during your work on

your depression and how it helped you getting the anger out? Well it
happened to me too!!! She didn't actually reject me. She is like a
sister to me! She made me admit that I was blaming her for my
depression. But then even though she called for it, she was badly hurt.
God knows I didn't want to hurt her. She asked for some time off. She
needed to detach for a while. She needed to know where she stood with
me. Take your time, I said. I love you.
I thought I was very hurt myself. But no! I was not hurt. And there's
the big change in thought!! I was mad at her!!! I was so angry and I let

it all out in the privacy of my mind, using T.'s fu fu prayers at work,
allowing it to come out at home...
Then she called and apologized and I apologized too and cried some and
laughed some...
Anyway. I do feel so much better. Actually I don't feel any depression
at all.... (Whispering again here...)
Irene

How nice to hear from you and what wonderful work you are doing. Don't
whisper, shout it to the world, your depression will slowly disappear
the more you do things like what you just did. It will get better and
better. Releasing and redirecting anger has the same effect as an
antidepressant. The more you keep doing the self-help
measures there will come a time when you don't need an antidepressant.
BE SURE to redirect the anger toward your parents if you are
mad at a friend who seems to reject you. Your parents are
the ones who really rejected you.
Love,
Ellie