Yesterday I wrote:I've been saying there are no highs post-flood, but I
must say I do get
> a high from time to time that may be related to the release of old
> anger. When I slap a stamp on each of l00 letters to prisons, I say
to
> myself, 'close this place down.' I suspect this is some old anger at
> the pscyh hospitals where I was locked up for so many years. I just
got
> the addresses for prisons in Sweden. I must say they look a lot
> nicer--and conducive to recovery-- than the expensive psych hospital
> where I did a four year term. My husband had a Mafia friend who spent
> four years at Sing Sing and we used to compare notes.

From V, who I now call Valerie,

> High is good! Kids are naturally high. Maybe you're just returning
> to
> the exuberance of your childhood. YEA!!!!!!!!! Valerie

During the intense detox period people are like to feel an unusual
'high' after releasing and redirecting anger. This is from excess
noradrenaline that is released, and is the same kind of manicky high the
boys at Littleton got while shooting up people. This manicky high will
diminish and not be there post flood. I probably have a bit of old anger
in me about the psych hospitals and the abuse I received in them, so I
get a bit of a high when I slap a stamp on a letter to a prison. But
there is a general feeling of sustained high or happy or joy post-flood,
only it's not manicky. And you're so right it's the exuberance of
childhood. Yea!! It's fun and I am very much like a little kid.
Ellie

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