Ellie,

 

They say things come in 3's but these past few months, I have had

several things that have made me, well...very angry. I have so much

cumulative anger in me at the people who have caused this anger that I

cannot even bring myself to pound the bed, etc. like I was doing before

this streak came on. I am just filled with so much "current" rage at

things it is like I am frozen and don't even want to bother taking my

little tool that I use to safely pound things with and get the anger

out. And you would think just the opposite since right now I am filled

with more anger than normal. I can't understand why this "frozen state"

of not wanting to express the anger. I keep thinking it won't help

because I am so angry. Yet when I started out doing RST when I was not

angry with all the current real life stuff, I was getting results. What

has happened? Why am I not willing to act now on the "fresh anger"? I

am all bottled up. S.

 

When you say "I keep thinking it won't help," it sounds like you are experiencing some depression at the same time. The detox process is not cut and dried, and you may be experiencing many types of symptoms at the same time. I notice in your subject line, you probably meant to write "So angry I can't do the RST" But you wrote "I can" and you can! Just try to tell yourself when your feel the rage coming up that it's time to redirect it and if you can't do it physically, do it mentally. And don't worry too much about this frozen state. You will get new opportunites to redirect. You know what to do now, and your body will guide you.