Hi Ellie,

             Recently I had a very upsetting visit with one of my sisters. She became very angry with me for no apparent reason and said things that reminded me so much of some of the things that my mother used to say to me when I was a kid. It startled me and brought up some really bad feelings and memories,so much so that I began to feel very anxious a week or so after the visit was over. I had some suicidal feelings and a return of the IBS symptoms. I began to redirect again pretty seriously for about a week and the symptoms have pretty much disappeared I still feel somewhat anxious from time to time. I am also having a lot of angry feelings towards my husband and we are talking seriously of separation.I am wondering about the intensity of my anger in these situations. I had thought that I would not feel so intensely angry anymore and I wouldnt have the intensity about the past anymore. I also do not have the loving and grateful feelings towards my parents. Could I be regressing or do I just need more time? I am about 6 months or so post-flood. Do you ever feel intensely angry anymore?  C.

 

Hi,

You are not regressing, sounds like more repressed anger from the past. I think at six months I still had very intense anger with people that was a mix of anger at them and anger from childhood. Now its over 3 yrs for me and I still get angry, but it's mild. Try doing some intense redirecting everytime you think about their behavior. If you feel any "high" and then any depression, it's definitely mostly anger from the past.

 

Stay well,

Ellie