I have been a "self-help addict" since I was around 15 years old. I have studied all kinds of stuff, ranging from yoga to mysticism and new thought. I can say that I'm mystical by nature and sincerely I love the new thought philosophy and that's my religion.

Here in the US, I graduated in hypnosis, regression therapy and I'm an ordained minister as well. I have had the opportunity to help many people along the way, however, I always felt as if the kind of therapies I applied was like putting a patch over their problems or somehow hiding them from their past traumas.

I, for example, in the last few months developed a kind of depression, helplessness and panick, anxiety crisis, without knowing where it came from! It made me very mad, since for years I had tried to "fix" my mind.

Yesterday, sat, June 30th, by the grace of God within me, I happened to find your website and mailgroup through a search in Yahoo. I know it is very early to say it, but something clicked in my mind immediately! I said: -That's it!!!!! I've found the missing link that I was looking for so long.

After eagerly reading your self-help system, I laid down and practiced releasing my anger at my parents, and, you may think it is an exageration, but I felt as if an energy current was flowing through my body! It was a feeling that I just had felt under deep hypnosis or meditation, as if some heavy weight was released from my body.

I look forward and am very excited and motivated to keep on practicing it. And, the best is that your theory cleared a doubt in my soul. For years I have tried to help people and help myself. I always try to practice what we call "the presence of God". However, it came to my mind that: If you still have many repressed anger inside your mind/soul/brain, you cannot fully be yourself neither feel a mystical experience!

Now I'm very positive that I'll be able to clear the "blockages" that keep me stucked in a traumatic and limiting childhood. (I was raised in a traditional christian family and was taught to obey authority without questioning).

What I want to say is that, I think that even our religious/mystical experiences will be improved if we follow these procedures. A point that strucked me in the face is that one symptom you list is the need of meditative techniques to calm the mind. And I can back that up, because lately when I felt depressed I meditated, had a good feeling for a few hours, and then went back to depression. Now I know why I had the need to meditate so much!

It does not mean that I will not meditate anymore, but, whith the grace of God, when I'm "clear" from past supressed anger, I feel that my meditations will be for the real purpose of improving my soul, not as an easy escape from anxiety/depression.

I apologize for being so mystical in my approach, but that is who I am, and I want to follow the path of spiritual growth, but conscious that I'm not in it for the wrong reasons. If possible, please let me know what you think of my point, that is: "When people practice the self-release, they are able to free themselves to better experience their spiritual side". W.