Hi to all,

One of many favorite verses... "And we know that IN ALL THINGS God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." Romans 8:28. Yes, to have God in my life has been healing. I also remind myself God will not give me anything I can not handle.

Anything can become a co-dependant group if YOU are acting in a co-dependant way. The Christian co-dependant 12 step group I was in for 3 years, all the self-help books and the RST. Were all steps towards my healing... None a waste of my time. It is the resistance to want to change the way "WE" are that holds us back. I do not look only to the Bible for great wisdom also through other spiritual teachers. Terry Cole-Whittaker, Mary Mannin Morrissey, Ellie, Emerson, Buddhist proverbs and My own internal wisdom, and even Oprha. I believe people come into our lives to teach us something. "When the student is ready the teacher will appear" Chinese proverb. I guess what really dumb founds me is why the world of Medicine or Psych land will not accept Ellies findings as true. Well, go figure... ECT has made a dramatic come back and there is no proof of it doing anyone any good only more damage. Yet, still being done!

I can only plant seeds to those in so much pain. I can not "make" them do anything. It is "our" own journey we each must travel and we can help each other. When someone asks me why I am so happy... I tell them because I choose to be. Now, this is not to say I do not get angry and redirect. No, I am not avoiding anything any more. I can now separate the issues. I do not have to respond in the same way I did before. I can let it out and let it go. If it does come up... and I can not let it go... It is time for the old tennis racket the mattress, and some real physical movement. I have learned to listen to myself, my needs and give to myself in more ways then I have ever before given. I am off anti-depressants... after 10 years.

I do not examine my past any more. I am not complaining about what I have not accomplished. Only look at where I am heading. I am seeing myself in a whole new light. The selfish fog of depression has lifted. This is not the end of the journey for me...just a new beginning. There is so much more to see, learn, discover and I am able to serve and love others with altruism and authenticity. Ahhh to love others as I love myself is God's plan... Sasha