So here it is the 5th of November at 12:52am. I got paid yesterday
and went to Walmart to buy some groceries. Wow that was a feat all by
itself.Bought the vitamins. 240 dollars walmart bill....(Uh, 160
dollars for a dvd player and some dvd's to go along with it.), On the
way home I had this notion {Gee, I can spend just 40 dollars on a
machine and walk away} Boy that was a wrong notion. I blew it all
except the money I needed to put in my daughters bank account for her
to live on at college...almost blew that too. I ended up returning
the dvd player and dvd's and deposited 100 in the girlfriends
account. I dont think she knows it yet. I still have 60 dollars on me
without gambling it. I should have taken those vitamins the first
thing this morning. Instead I took them after I blew a wad of
money...but it did help taking the vitamins. At least I believe they
did. I could have blew the 60 in a few seconds too but I did not. I
called a shrink but he has not gotten back to me yet. I am to tired
to go see him tomrrow. I am working graveyard right now. I still dont
know what to say to the girlfriend or even if she still is a
girlfriend. All I know is that I love her and I knwo she hates this
affliction with a passion. (Gee-AS IF I DON'T TOO) I have to talk to
her and I know it but I guess I am a chicken shit right now.
Something to do with salt and wounds.