Hello Diane and John,
I am glad you answered John it seems you are starting to answer many
of your unanswered questions. I too have found it hard to find the
answers to many questions I have. I wonder why things happened to me
in my life and why it had to be me. For years I wondered what I did
to be abused, what did I say wrong and I too lived in fear. Over the
years I have changed in many ways, I have done things that I can not
explain but I have learned much about myself because of the
unanswered questions. Many times I have asked myself what if this
did not happen to me? Would my life be different? If this happened
again in this day and age would someone listen to me? But there are
somethings that are better left unanswered. In the future I hope you
can fully get over the events from you past and go on to live a happy
life.

Dex