Hi,

My name is Melody and I am 36 years old with 2 beautiful children
ages 17 and 11. My husband has just been released from an inpatient
program. This is his 5th one to be exact. So, I still don't feel
like he's getting it deep down. His drug of choice is crack cocaine
and he also drinks. It started with the drinking when I met him,
but I never new it was a problem (had I know then, I probably would
have ran). His cocaine started when his own cousin introduced him,
to it in our own house. It's been hell ever since. He's been
drinking and crackin' on and off for about 12 years. I don't know
why I'm still here to tell you the truth. It's caused the whole
family to be dysfunctional. I'm suffering from depression now my
son doesn't do well in school; and now that my daughter is getting
older I can see who it is really affecting her as well.

Now that he's out of recovery, what about me. He's got all the
tools to try and fight this addition and I don't. I just wanted to
try this onlne al-a-non since my career doesn't allow me to attend
meetings. I travel 3 weeks out of every month. I'm hope this will
help me since I travel from state to state.

If there is anyone who understand what I'm going through and advice
would help!

Thanks,

Mel