Hi All,

I am Dolt, a sex addict and an alcoholic codependant. The SA part is a
whole other story but, a few months back I posted here and got good
advice, I did not heed it. Instead I have been hanging on to a
relationship with a woman half of my 45 years old age.

She is an in denial alcoholic with an ego bigger than life itself.
Where does that ego come from, is that common?

I had her hauled away by the paramedics and that was the beginning of
the end of our relationship. But, I get suckered into her desire to
have company and then she taunts the living bejeezus out of me by
calling new boyfriends in front of me, she is now on her second one
since us. This guy is a 40 year old multi millionaire. She was jobless
with me, and now makes twice the money I do, as she is in the
entertainment field...very quick money! It has all gone to her head.
And she is stunningly pretty...so, she was already on a big trip
before.

I actually got suckered the other night, she was drinking beer when I
was there, I joined in, which I NEVER do. She called the new
millionaire, told him she "missed him" right in front of me, and I
BOILED. She kicked me out as I whined, which she always does, kick me
out I mean. Prior to that she was kissing me and more during her music
dance that she did while staring at herself in the mirror the whole
time.

Angry at being kicked out cuz' he was on the way, and it is his condo,
I scraped everything on her kitchen counter off and onto the floor,
took all her clothes out of the closet and threw em' on the ground,
and slapped her in the face. I have only done that once before, maybe,
but that is enough for a lifetime.

I feel guilty for the slap, and mad for going down to see her, and
ugly inside. she has killed my self esteem. I have been acting out on
the SA side, a lot, and that doesn't help for sure.

Thank you for listening to this and I am sorry to put you through such
an ugly thing that I did. I hope I wasn't too explicit.

Kindest regards...Dolt