Thanks for all the good advise. I have been considered the idea of
leaving him. I have lost all my friends and the freedom I once
enjoyed so much. I know have a hard time living the house for fear
that he will do something. But it's time that I stood up for myself.
I deserve better then that. I deserve to be happy and loved. But
even knowing all of this I am still afraid of leaving. I am afraid
that I am co-dependent. Sorry I know I ma co-dependent. But I have
made the decision that I wish to break this cycle. Even if it means
I will lose the man I love I come first. I need to be happy before I
can make anyone else happy. But I think the most important part is
the fact that I cannot love a man who does not know how to love
himself.