Hi listmates,

I have not been feeling my normal chipper self for the last two
months. Having worked in and around medicine for quite awhile, I am
averse to going in for treatment. With people and animals, medical
practice seems great for routine prevention (vaccines for example) and
trauma treatment, but not good for medical treatment. So, I have been
doing some research. Amongst other things, I consulted with some
doctors that are friends ;>. It was a barter really, I got their
perspective and they got a work out on improving their ducking...
Actually, we were all sitting around discussing the medical world in
America. The first thing one of them said was "For God's sake, stay
out of the doctor's office!" He takes all kinds of supplements etc
and also tries to stay away. Made me think I was on the right track.

So I had researched what doctors normally do for heart oriented
complaints, and it turns out the cure is the same as the prevention.
With the exception of beta and calcium channel blockers (first keeps
heart from beating its hardest and second dilates vessels - which can
also be done with exercise,lecithin, etc) and surgery. Shoot, I even
used to do surgeries when I was working in medical research lab, so
push come to shove, that might not even be a problem. It's just a
challenge to get those mirrors to stay put. One of the doctors did
suggest an echocardiogram to check for mitral valve prolapse, which is
apparently fairly common.

So, I firmed up my regimens for diet, exercise, aspirin, supplements
(calcium, potassium, vitamins, lecithin), antioxidants (particularly
pomegranate juice and berries and herbs, such as oregano and fresh
garlic. No one will talk to me now, but dang, I feel better.

I also upped my ingestion of humor, and have tried to lower stress,
but life is always stressful - but only when I am awake. So, I
resolved to sleep more. Which has been easy because I am more tired.

In short, I have steadily improved, but I am not "back to normal" yet.
So, I had run into a copy of Larry Dossey's book on the mind being
nonlocal. I have always believed this. Physics kind of predicts it
and it is the best model I have found so far. Those who know me concur
that my mind is "non-local" and they will comment on it saying things
like, "Wow, Kayce, you are really out there."

Dossey also talks about research on prayer, which I found fascinating.
In particular he cited the Spindrift research (from Scotland). Here
is the gist: Prayer helps. The worse off the subject is, the more
dramatically the prayer helps. There are more and less effective ways
to pray. It helps if the prayer knows the subject. Frequent is
better then longer (several short is better than one long session).
Prayer is most effective if non-directed. Distance makes no
difference, nor is there any delay. This I thought was really
interesting and took a lot of pressure off the prayer. If everything
is really infinitely wise (some of us just hide it better than
others), then the body does not need to be told what to do, it just
needs to be supported. That made sense to me, and was helpful because
I am always afraid I will ask for, or visualize, the wrong thing, and
complicate matters.

Then I talked to list member, Karen Hawkens, who is actively involved
in a prayer group and I asked to become an honorary member. So she
gave me my assignments, and they added me to their list. I mean, now
that I knew more about how to pray most effectively, I was ready to
work it out. What is amazing is that I felt an almost immediate
improvement. Maybe it is a placebo thing, or maybe Karen should
bottle this stuff and sell it, or maybe my being knew, being
infinitely wise, that help was on the way and it could relax.

I talked to Karen later and we traded notes. I definitely felt much
better, but have to watch that, because I felt so much better I wanted
to finish the project I was working on and stayed up till 5 am - not
quite realizing the passage of time. So, I am going to bed after I
finish this post, to get back on track. (10:30 our time). Karen
remarked I sounded much better. But then, she said she also felt
improved. So, we were two for two. Still waiting to hear how the
other folks on the list are doing.

So, I thought this whole prayer thing was interesting, partially
because it is so accessible. Not everyone is a healer of others, but
anyone can pray. Oh! I almost forgot - the secret ingredient of
prayer was said to be caring, love, and oneness, but it did not matter who is
prayed to. Maybe lends insight as to why medicine
is having such problems. The doctors are set up so that they cannot
really know their patients, and they cannot relate to them without
endangering themselves. There is something really wrong when doctors
have such a high drug use and suicide rate. And medical mistakes are
the 6th leading cause of death in America, according to the AMA.

So, that is my report on that.

However, I have another.

As I reported earlier, I went to scientific psychic. com and tested
out on the Rhine test and go 35% over 100 trials (chance of that:
1/1764, as I recall). However, I thought that was rather sobering.
It was statistically significant, but you would not get rich playing
the lottery if you got one third of the numbers right! So,
surprizing, but not profitable.

Then, as I also reported, I did it again and was anti-psychic, getting
less than chance (odds, 1/13).

I have repeated this trend again and again. The first run I normally
do better than the second, but I am not neutral on the second run, I
have generally been "anti".

I tried to pay attention to what I perceived when making choices. In
both cases (whether "psychic" or "anti psychic") I will get a bit of a
pull in my gut, just below the ribcage, in the midline. However,
often I don't feel a thing, and I feel the same tug when making right
or anti right choices. At the ARE (Edgar Cayce's foundation, where
they let you test yourself more thoroughly on all this) they let you
see whether you know what is happening, what will happen, or what just
happened, or if you are always off by a certain factor, etc. I never
thought to consider any of those possiblities.

If I am tired, I am always "anti". I also think that one might be
more receptive to information about things of more significance to
one, like danger, versus little random shapes. My father, when
talking about his two minor injuries in Viet Nam, always said
ernestly, the only reason he got them was because he did not duck when
told to (gut feeling).

It seems to me that it helps to close my eyes when I seek this kind of
information, and I close my eyes when performing an exercise that we
use to train reaction times of trainers (the game, "hot hands").
During this, I get NO physical sensation, just a feeling of urgency to
move my hands away. I want to video tape this, so I can see how
accurate I am, because I am told I am very accurate, but of course, I
have my eyes closed so... (When my eyes are opened, I don't think I am
quite so accurate. Hmmmm.... could be grounds for another experiment.)

Finally, over the holidays I watched a bunch of people interacting
with my animals, and some really put the animals off. Most of these
people had "wild" energy. I used to have that also. One of these
people was a young boy, and he really wanted to relate to the animal.
So, we talked about it. I let him test for my aura, and did the test
where I put my finger up and down as I contracted and expanded my
aura, and when everyone told him he was right on, he gained confidence
in this idea, although he, like me, could not see it. Then he
practiced changing his aura, as I had, and once he got quiet, the
animals went right up to him. People also tended to avoid him and we
talked about testing this out on people also. I told him that it
wasn't wrong to have wild energy, it just made many people
uncomfortable - like when they were too close to the fire. So, if we
see people backing away a bit, consider lowering the "volume". It
makes sense. I will just have to remember to try it! ;>

Finally, I visited a friend who cares for her ancestral home. Her
family has occupied this homestead since 1732. A bit of ghost
activity has been reported. Mostly things moving and being moved.
So, we were going on the tour, and passed door which caught my
attention. I remarked silently that the door looked like it was stuck
and would not open. I asked my friend about it and she said it was
fine and we would go through that door to go upstairs, after seeing
some of the other rooms. When we returned, the door was wide open.
There was no wind, no shifting, no temperature changes to cause this.
We closed the door as it had been, and I tested the door knob. It
was very securely closed. My friend said, "welcome to this house!"
Then she called out to no one in particular, "We are coming up in a
minute!" I believe it was good energy and found it amusing.

We also visited the slave grave yard on the premises (this is a 400
acre farm which had resident slaves for over 100 years). This had
recently been mapped and confirmed by scholars. The slaves were
buried in shallow graves, which, after all this time, results in rows
and rows of trough-like depressions. No markers except for an
occasional stone. We asked permission before entering. My friend
takes care of it and believes she was a slave here in a past life, so
she is welcome there. I was too, I believe. It was quite peaceful,
but the atmosphere was very heavy. My friend says that at night, she
cannot approach the area, and that the horses avoided the adjacent
barn and pasture area.

Pretty profound experience. My friend finds her family's attitude
toward the slaves (still!) really frustrating. There is no real
concern and there is still a tendency toward separatism. I have
always said that I think slavery is wrong but that I never owned a
slave nor did my family. However, we are finding that my family had
plenty of slaves. However, probably not my direct ancestors, because I
seem to be descended from a long line of women or second sons. Maybe
a good way to avoid a bunch of karma. Plus you don't have to take
care of all the heirlooms! I am learning that that is a big burden.

Best,
Kayce