Hi Kathy,

 

     My name is Kristin. I have a 9 year old son with cp. His father and I split up back in 1999. Which was the best thing that could happen for us. Then in 2001, I met this guy online. He's from NC, and we talked for awhile. He was the best thing, aside from my son, to happen to me. He helps me with Alex. It's like we are soul mates. He lived in NC for awhile then he moved up to MD with me and he's been here ever since. Last Feb. I found out that he was talking to this girl at work. I found text messages on his cell phone and he swore that they were just friends. I have guy friends, so I figured he could have "girlfriends". He was 23 at the time, and then I found out that the girl was only 17. This went on for about 6 months. We were close to breaking up over this. And then one day he said he would stop talking to her, and everything was ok. I mean, I still thought about it once in awhile, but it wasn't as bad.

     Then, in January this past year, Alex had a really long siezure and almost died. He wasn't doing very good. Now, almost 9 months later, he's doing a lot better, but he's just not the same as he was. I've been so stressed out and just not paying too much attention to my boyfriend. And we never talk about things. Then on the 16th of September, I found out he was talking to this girl AGAIN!!!! I figured out his email password and read all of these emails. Anyway, between then and now, we have been talking and I found out that he slept with her last year, among other things. He said it was 1 time. But, the whole thing was, I trusted him soooo much!! I NEVER THOUGHT HE would EVER do THAT  to ME!!!! So, the past few weeks have been sssoooo bad for me. I always said that I would NEVER stay with someone who would cheat on me but, I decided to stay with him, because I do love him. No one has EVER cheated on me and I did not think that he would EVER do this to me. I just couldn't believe it! I've never felt the way I do towards anyone like I do for him. My friends couldn't believe it either. But, now we're trying to work through this and see what happens. I love him so much, but it's SSOOO hard to get the visions and the words I read in those emails out of my head. It's ALL the time!! So, I'm hoping that over time, they won't bother me so much.

     But, I just wanted to say, I'm so sorry. I can only imagine how you're feeling right now. And if you ever want to talk, I'm always home! I don't work either. I know it doesn't seem like it now, but things will get better.

 

Kristin : )

kathy saunders <ilovejojoevanchris@...> wrote: