Flyingman, what do you do for a living? Are you kept busy all day? Do
you have goals that you are passionate about and bring excitement to
your life? Past hurts tend to stay where they are when you are living
on-purpose in the NOW.


--- In bylto@yahoogroups.com, "theflyingman2003" <afoong@...> wrote:
>
> Hey ladies and gents!
>
> I've been trying to control my thoughts on and off for the past few
> weeks, but it gets hard sometimes. With this 7 day thing I'll make a
> concentrated effort.
>
> Did a bit of a prelimanary trial last night and this morning. Most
> of my negative thoughts come from reliving past hurts. These past
> hurts don't really matter, they just tend to be the most recent
> ones. If I go for months without any conflict in life I'll just
> relive that last one, even if its a year old!
>
> Finally after reading the work of Eckhart Tolle, I realised it's the
> structure of the ego (to have the tendency to relive past hurts),
> and the content (what I relive) doesn't really matter. I've been
> observing it a lot as Tolle suggests, and it seems to work for a few
> days, and then I revert to being upset for no seemingly no reason.
>
> Last night as I lay in bed (the traditional time for all these
> thoughts to come in), I caught these thoughts coming in every 5
> minutes or even less, meaning that I stayed awake for 2 hours
> tossing and turning, and I relived them about 1/3rd of the time
> (other times I am present enough to notice that they are just
> thoughts).
>
> Sigh. I get frustrated at this sometimes. There are days when I
> sleep like a baby or run around the room in pure bliss. Then there
> are days (even though external situations haven't changed) where I'm
> all upset.
>
> Sometimes I will go and listen to music or do something to lift my
> spirits and take my mind off things, but it feels like an escape
> from my troubles (as most likely it will return once I turn off the
> CD or something). What do you guys think on that issue?
>