hi thinnow29,
first let me start off by saying that this may seem to work, but it
does NOT!!  Although you may be losing a pound/day, you're also losing
your health everyday.  You may think that right now you are in control
of bulimia, but you're not.  I challenge you now, try not to
binge/purge for one week, and see what happens.  I'm speaking from
experience.  I've been struggling with bulimia for just over a year,
and it's eating me.  I've wasted so much time with it-time throwing-
up, time thinking about not eating/what I can eat, time criticizing
myself about my weight, and now time seeing doctors, time with my
psychologist.  The temptation to binge/purge is so great everyday.  It
seems so easy to just get rid of it all in 5 minutes.  For awhile I
forgot what my life was like before bulimia, how free it was.  How I
didn't have to think about how many calories was in what I was eating,
how I didn't have to wait for the right time to hit the bathroom and
keep it a secret, how I didn't choose the clothes I wear by how thin
they make me look not how nice they were.  I forgot what it was like
enjoy a meal out with my friends/family.  I forgot what it was like to
go out with friends and not think about whether I'm fatter than them,
or whether other people are thinking I'm fat.  Although I had these
feelings before bulimia, bulimia just heightens them.  Okay, well,
this was sort of a rant for me, and well, right now I'm recovering
from bulimia and last week I slipped up for the first time in 5
weeks.  And right now I just want to go throw-up sooo bad!  Anyway,
please reply to this thinnow29, talk to me, we can help each other.  I
felt the same way when I first started-like this was great because I
could eat without worrying and then throw it up and lose weight-but
it's not like that.  Please believe me.  If not, do try to go without
binging/purging for a week or two and see if you can.  I'm here for
you.  

--- In bulimics@yahoogroups.com, "thinnow29" <thinnow29@...> wrote:
>
> first let me start by saying that this working for me. I use to weigh
> 183 pounds i had alread lost 40 before I started binging and purging
> I know its cheating but all my life I havent had control of anything
> and now i can loose a pound a day it use to take 2 months to loose
10
> pounds, i have been doing this for 2 months now and feel the best i
> have in a long time. i still have control of it but how do u loose
> control of how can you not be able to stop
>