Well I am joining this site in desperation. I hsve been battling
bulemia for 7 years now; and some days I feel like it is to late to
save myself. For one, because it have become such a way of living for
me. And two, soemdays I feel it is the only control I have in my life.

When I am not throwing up, I eat extrememly healthy but I always get
the urge to actually eat a real meal. But then it's followed by guilt...

In addition to the bulemia I have become addicted to diet pills and
laxatives. Every day and all day is revolved around my weight and the
way my body looks.

I haven't had any horrible medical problems yet. just that my teeth are
erroded, severe heartburn all the time, irregular menstrual cycles,
depression, fatigue, etc. The killer of it all is that I have NO health
insurance. It's too damn expensive!

I don't know what to do? All I know is that I want to be normal. Does
anyone have advice??????