--- In bulimics@yahoogroups.com, "Katherine" <cesarpup@...> wrote:
>
> I finally opened up to my boyfriend about my problem. I have 2
kids
> and can not take time to go get better somewhere. I have a
counseling
> session scheduled but I think I will cancel it. Bingind and
purging is
> just how I deal with problems, it makes me better. I would rather
be
> emotionally stable than not, and bulimia is what keeps me there. I
am
> starting to excercise now, maybe that will help, I walked today
with my
> kids and the dog. I have been bulimic for 14 years now, have been
> hospitalized for it, tons of therapy, meds, you name it. I love
food,
> I do not want to get bigger than I already am, and throwing up
feels
> good to me (does that make sense)? Any input/help is appreciated,
this
> is starting to affect my life in a way that I NEVER intended.
> Thanks.
>

I feel the same way. I am sorry you are having to deal with this
because I know what it feels like to deal with this. It makes me feel
like I am in so much control when in reality, I am not. I just
started therapy for it about 4 weeks ago and so far that's all I have
figured out. And the only reason I began therapy is because I noticed
the health issues that were starting to come about. I hope it goes
better for all of us soon.