I finally opened up to my boyfriend about my problem. I have 2 kids
and can not take time to go get better somewhere. I have a counseling
session scheduled but I think I will cancel it. Bingind and purging is
just how I deal with problems, it makes me better. I would rather be
emotionally stable than not, and bulimia is what keeps me there. I am
starting to excercise now, maybe that will help, I walked today with my
kids and the dog. I have been bulimic for 14 years now, have been
hospitalized for it, tons of therapy, meds, you name it. I love food,
I do not want to get bigger than I already am, and throwing up feels
good to me (does that make sense)? Any input/help is appreciated, this
is starting to affect my life in a way that I NEVER intended.
Thanks.