My Addiction



I have been an addict for 10 long years,

And brought my family so many tears.



I asked the Lord to hear my cry,

And when he did not answer I wondered why.



My addiction made me stop about anyone and everything anymore,

Made my family wonder if I would ever change or carry on forever more.



I was so strung out that my future was no loger in sight,

My loved ones doing all they could but feared I would never see the light.



My family was so full of fear,

But all I cared about was drugs and alcohol throughout my years.



My addiction turned me into someone I did not know or want to be,

But I was so pumped up with drugs I never could see; let alone believe.



I felt there was not an ounce of hope,

My loved ones could no longer cope.



I did the drugs to escape reality and pain,

It ended up turning my whole world upside down; making me totally insane.



I have seen and done things I wish I never had,

No one realizes how much it makes me sad.



I turned my back on my loved ones and avoided them all as much as I could,

Now I comprehend that I hurt everyone pretty damn good.



My loved ones thought they knew me exceptionally well,

I hid the monstrous creature I was ‘cause I knew it would break their hearts and
make the tears begin to swell.



I know that I have died on many occasions deep down inside of my core,

By then I was just a junkie, not caring, setting my sights on my next score.



I have lived a life full of many regrets,

Now I have learned many valuable lessons I will not ever forget.



Written By Misty M. Dixon

Written On 10- 20-2002

For my parents and Lewis to try and understand.













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