I know this group is supposed to help people with those disorders but I got
mine, bulimia, when I was put on a certain medication, and most of the time I
cant control getting sick. But there are times when I can control it and I still
will chose to do it. I lost 150 pounds in 9 months and my bill of health has
never been better. I am even a narcotics agent now. I was able to achieve all
these things I wanted by doing something that people die from. It is a disease.
But it is one that I am willing to die from. I can keep down come things. Mostly
cereals. But then again I normally can't control it anyways. Also for the other
girls out there, take up smoking. It really keeps your habds occupied and your
mouth occupied so you arent thinking about food. Nicotine curbs your appetite
and it really does work. At my highest I weighed over 300 and now I weigh 175,
and still dropping, and I am 6 feet tall. So yes I do know that I am tall but
either way, if it ever got to the point to where I
dont need to throw up anymore, I think I can say with all honesty, I will do it
anyways. I would rather be sick and skinny than healthy and fat. Been down that
road and I like the view from here. Shopping at Forever 21 and those little
skimpy stores that I never dreamed I could fit into. Now at my height and
weight, I wear a medium/small of theirs. I now LOVE shopping. But it was not all
fun and games. It can with a price at the start of it all when I was so sick I
couldnt keep anything down if i had to. Docs still arent exactly sure what it
is. Passing out. Lethargy. All of that. But I am more happy now that I ever
was. And if putting your finger down your throat makes you happy, then goddamnit
just do it. Whatever makes you feel good. I spent 18 years thinking I was so
ugly and what not, even though shockingly I got some of the hottest guys I guess
the wholle ugly duckling syndrome, and this is what makes me happy now. Iwould
never change it. Oh and to let ya'll now. I just ate a
bowl of Kellogs and I am keeping it down

Lindsey: amity1382@...


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