I REALLY APPRECIATE YOUR NOTES OF ENCOURAGEMENT. THIS IS ALL STILL
VERY NEW TO ME AND IT SEEMS AS THOUGH PROGRESS WILL BE SLOW IN
COMING. I CAN'T WAIT TO BE PAIN FREE IF I EVER WILL. I STILL WANT A
CIGARETTE VERY BADLY BUT I KEEP TELLING MYSELF "I LOVE MY TOES, I
LOVE MY TOES". THANKS AGAIN FOR THE ENCOURAGEMENT, I HOPE THAT
SOMEDAY REAL SOON I WILL BE ABLE TO POST SOMETHING ENCOURAGING ABOUT
MY CONDITION TO HELP OTHERS DEAL WITH THIS.

I COULD TELL YOU MY GREATEST FEAR WOULD BE TO HAVE TO TELL MY GRAND-
DAUGHTERS (4) THAT THERE YOUNG GRANDMA LOST TOES AND FINGERS BECAUSE
SHE SMOKED CIGARETTES. HOW STUPID WOULD THAT MAKE ME LOOK IN THEIR
EYES. HOW DISGUSTED WOULD THEY BE TO HAVE A DISFIGURED GRANDMOTHER
COME TO THEIR SCHOOL FUNCTIONS. HOW SAD WOULD I FEEL TO NOT BE ABLE
TO STROKE THEIR HAIR OR HOLD THEIR HANDS AND WALK WITH THEM. HOW SAD
WOULD THEY BE TO NOT HAVE ME IN THEIR YOUNG LIVES. HOW SAD IT MAKES
ME TO EVEN THINK THIS.

GOOD LUCK TO ALL OF US...KATHY