Clear DayA letter to my friends.









I had sex once…. Week 18 of this, and I hate it. But I still do the TX anyway.
I want to apologize in advance to everyone. My mind is slowly slipping. I get
confused easy, and I get lost, but this is part of the TX and I expect it. I
try and keep my mind active so please bear with me….





A WHITER SHADE OF PALE

We skipped the light fandango Turned cartwheels cross the floor I was feeling
kind of seasick The crowd called out for more The room was humming harder As the
ceiling flew away When we called out for another drink But the waiter brought a
tray *And so it was later As the miller told his tale That her face at first
just ghostly Turned a whiter shade of pale You said there is no reason And the
truth is plain to see But I wander through my playing cards And would not let it
be I'm one of the sixteen virgins Who are leaving for the coast And although my
eyes were open They might just as well been closed A whiter shade of pale Turned
a whiter shade of pale A whiter shade of pale



From morning to night I stayed out of sight. Didn't recognize I'd become
No more than alive I'd barely survive In a word...overrun
Won't hear a sound from my mouth I've spent too long
On the inside out My skin is cold To the human touch
This bleeding heart's Not beating much
I murmured a vow of silence and now
I don't even hear when I think aloud
Extinguished by light I turn on the night
Wear its darkness with an empty smile
I'm creeping back to life My nervous system all awry
I'm wearing the inside out
Look at him now He's paler somehow
But he's coming round He's starting to choke
It's been so long since he spoke
Well he can have the words right from my mouth

And with these words I can see
Clear through the clouds that covered me
Just give it time then speak my name
Now we can hear ourselves again
I'm holding out For the day When all the clouds
Have blown away I'm with you now Can speak your name
Now we can hear Ourselves again




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