It makes me feel really good to read how well others are doing. For me time has
healed and made life bearable again, but the scars that I have do on occasions
open up and take me right back to feel the pain of losing my lovely Paul.  I
know that the scars will be with me forever. Nevertheless,  I have found
happiness with my partner Wayne, who I love and feel so very lucky to have in my
life.  It's 5 years this September since I lost Paul and it's the special times
that we have in our family which I feel Paul has missed out on so very much. 
Our niece is 18 years old today and another one is graduating from university
in July. Also, her sister has been accepted on a nursing course, which she has
been trying hard to do for some time.....these are some of the times when he
should have been with us.  He was such a special uncle to them and I feel so sad
that he isn't with them to hug them and tell them how proud he is.  We really
miss him.

--- On Mon, 18/5/09, julie thomson <juliejulery@...> wrote:


From: julie thomson <juliejulery@...>
Subject: Re: [Autoerotic Asphyxiation Support] A little note
To: autoeroticasphyxiationsupport@yahoogroups.com
Date: Monday, 18 May, 2009, 10:54 AM








what a great email, good luck to you on your degree and to you and your son. I
lost my husband 9 yrs ago...my son who is 9 and I have moved on also new
partne,r new home and new future. there are still sad days, still times when a
memory is triggered both good and bad but mainly our life is happy and full now,
the scars are there but I dont allow the ugliness of aea to affect my life
anymore
all the very best for the future      julie
p.s I am a nurse in the UK it a most rewarding job

--- On Sun, 17/5/09, Staci <texasassywas@ yahoo.com> wrote:

From: Staci <texasassywas@ yahoo.com>
Subject: [Autoerotic Asphyxiation Support] A little note
To: autoeroticasphyxiat ionsupport@ yahoogroups. com
Date: Sunday, 17 May, 2009, 5:38 AM

I have not logged on here in quite a long time. June 1st will be 3 years since
Mark died. Our son is now 4 and is playing T-ball. I cried when he hit the ball
for the first time and ran for 1st base. It was a bitter sweet feeling. I have
been working really hard in making life work without Mark here. I started back
to college and working for a degree in nursing. I figure if that does not work
out, I can work for victims assistance and possibly help those that went through
what I did, and many of us on here did. I wanted to post a note on here and let
people that a new to this world of AeA know that it does get better. Time does
not heal your wounds, it just turns them into ugly scars, that are always there
to remind us of the pain we went through. It is hard and I do still get really
angry at his selfishness, but there is no need to cause myself more pain, what
is done is done, and you can only go up from here. I know that he is with me and
our son,
rooting for us everyday. I have been in school 2 and a half years and I have 2
more to go, life is possible after all this. I want to wish everyone the best,
and I pray everyday for families that endured this ugly beast called AeA.

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