Thank you so much for your thoughts and support. My husband will have been gone
a year June 14. I miss him so much. The pain dulls with time and you are right
the ache and the void never leaves. Carolanne
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From: "Staci" <texasassywas@...>

Date: Sun, 17 May 2009 04:38:49
To: <autoeroticasphyxiationsupport@yahoogroups.com>
Subject: [Autoerotic Asphyxiation Support] A little note


I have not logged on here in quite a long time. June 1st will be 3 years since
Mark died. Our son is now 4 and is playing T-ball. I cried when he hit the ball
for the first time and ran for 1st base. It was a bitter sweet feeling. I have
been working really hard in making life work without Mark here. I started back
to college and working for a degree in nursing. I figure if that does not work
out, I can work for victims assistance and possibly help those that went through
what I did, and many of us on here did. I wanted to post a note on here and let
people that a new to this world of AeA know that it does get better. Time does
not heal your wounds, it just turns them into ugly scars, that are always there
to remind us of the pain we went through. It is hard and I do still get really
angry at his selfishness, but there is no need to cause myself more pain, what
is done is done, and you can only go up from here. I know that he is with me and
our son, rooting for us everyday. I have been in school 2 and a half years and I
have 2 more to go, life is possible after all this. I want to wish everyone the
best, and I pray everyday for families that endured this ugly beast called AeA.




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