Charlee im so sorry for your loss, i look at my son and could never
imagine losing him to anything, the empty space you feel does get
smaller and then bigger and then smaller, some days are always going
to be harder then others, i lost my dad to aea and have found great
support here, it helps us feel not so alone knowing that there are
others out there who understand the private hell were going through or
have been through, My prayers are with you,
Suzanne
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> My name is Charlee, last Jan 15 2008 I came home and found my son had
> hanged himself, that what my shock saw, it was days later that I
> discoveed the police and ME findings. needless to say I had never
> heard of such a practice.... Josh was a promising headstrong young
> man, he ws 19. He had suffered a very tragic loss of a close friend
> and always felt guilty that he could have stoped it, so I knew he was
> having trouble with this, he never seemed to be suicidle, he was a
> handful yes but self destructive , he was scared to drive? what
> desrtuctive kid is afraid to drive? it has been a year and I still
> struggle every day trying to accept my lossI aised him alone and he
> was my pal and I was the Mom that he and his friends came to when
> things got sticky, I was fare and always tried to show unconditional
> love and he always took up for me if he thought someone hurt me, he
> was a sweet soul and everyone knew that about him, I have no choice I
> have to adapt to the loss of my son the fact that I will never have
> another child, Im lost in this empy space that just keeps getting
> bigger,I have lost many close friends and family, a stepson from a
> short marrige was shot and killed in june, he and Josh were pals they
> went to school together. I cannot aford this couseling they advise,
> mostly because Im such a privat person. and this is so personal to
> me, I m hoping that reaching out will bring me some solice, thank you
> Charlee
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