Charlee, I'm so sorry.  The pain of losing your only son must be so very hard
for you. 
Losing anyone that we love is hard, but to lose a child must be the hardest of
all. You have done the best thing by writing your story.  I lost my husband and
found lots of support on this site. I'm sure that you will receive the same
here.  Wendy
--- On Sat, 1/24/09, cchucky88 <cchucky88@...> wrote:

From: cchucky88 <cchucky88@...>
Subject: [Autoerotic Asphyxiation Support] my son
To: autoeroticasphyxiationsupport@yahoogroups.com
Date: Saturday, January 24, 2009, 5:59 AM






My name is Charlee, last Jan 15 2008 I came home and found my son had
hanged himself, that what my shock saw, it was days later that I
discoveed the police and ME findings. needless to say I had never
heard of such a practice.... Josh was a promising headstrong young
man, he ws 19. He had suffered a very tragic loss of a close friend
and always felt guilty that he could have stoped it, so I knew he was
having trouble with this, he never seemed to be suicidle, he was a
handful yes but self destructive , he was scared to drive? what
desrtuctive kid is afraid to drive? it has been a year and I still
struggle every day trying to accept my lossI aised him alone and he
was my pal and I was the Mom that he and his friends came to when
things got sticky, I was fare and always tried to show unconditional
love and he always took up for me if he thought someone hurt me, he
was a sweet soul and everyone knew that about him, I have no choice I
have to adapt to the loss of my son the fact that I will never have
another child, Im lost in this empy space that just keeps getting
bigger,I have lost many close friends and family, a stepson from a
short marrige was shot and killed in june, he and Josh were pals they
went to school together. I cannot aford this couseling they advise,
mostly because Im such a privat person. and this is so personal to
me, I m hoping that reaching out will bring me some solice, thank you
Charlee


















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