Tania
Enduring this hell is just so hard.  I wonder how I ever managed to get through
those days.  Although I researched as much as I could into why my husband chose
to do what he did, in the end all that mattered to me was that I no longer had
him with me.  There was only one person that I can remember who mentioned the
word suicide to me with regard to how Paul had died and really didn't know what
to say to him. I am so sorry that you are having to deal with accusations on top
of everything else.  I can't believe that your parents in law are accusing you
of such a thing.  That must be so hard.  Surely no-one can think that your
husbands death was suicide.  I can't comprehend that.  You  are no doubt in
utter turmoil and are living in hell...... I know how hard that is.  Keep
posting and you will receive support from people who will help you along the
way.  I lost my husband just over 4 years ago and I still need to know that
there are people out
there who know exactly how I feel.  Take care Wendy
--- On Wed, 10/15/08, tania_verdone <tania_verdone@...> wrote:

From: tania_verdone <tania_verdone@...>
Subject: [Autoerotic Asphyxiation Support] aea
To: autoeroticasphyxiationsupport@yahoogroups.com
Date: Wednesday, October 15, 2008, 6:42 PM






i lost my husband to aea 10 weeks ago....it doesn't make any sense to
me .he was a perfectionist in every aspect of the word. i found him on
his knees in the eves of our house.they said his nails were polished
red and there was some bodage..i just don't get it.There are no local
support groups for this...and yes i am telling people the truth i am
not letting my husbands legacy to go down as suicide...his parents
accused me of murdering him....he was 44 and had everything going for
him...tgv


















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