Hi Wendy. You described that so well, the pain easing by becoming accustomed to
it. I know I'll never "get over" my son's death. But I've learned to live with
it, deal with it, and in so doing, being able to function again in life. The
pain becomes part of who we are, who we'll become and lies beneath the surface.
It can rise at unexpected times with a fury. And then subside again. I'm
grateful that happens eventually for who would want to live forever with the
agony that comes in the beginning?  Forget? Never. Get over it? Never. Miss my
son? Always. Live again? Yes. Nice to hear from you again. ~Dianna Jason's mom
 
 

--- On Tue, 10/14/08, wendy watson <charlietigger@...> wrote:







From my experience, that initial excruciating pain that became part of my every
waking and sleeping moments did eventually ease.   I became accustomed to living
with the pain and even though it has eased, I am aware that the horror of losing
my precious husband will never leave me.  Time has played a major part in the
healing process.  I never thought that it would.  I am sure that your feelings
of anger towards your husband are normal and fully understandable.  I hope that
in the future those feelings will cease and are no longer of   concern to you. 
I never felt anger towards my husband, I felt so very sorry for him.  He did not
mean to leave me and would never have wanted me to find him in the way that I
did.  I'm so very sorry that you are in this terrible situation.  Take care
--- On Tue, 10/14/08, tuck_1964 <tuck_1964@yahoo. ca> wrote:

From: tuck_1964 <tuck_1964@yahoo. ca>
Subject: [Autoerotic Asphyxiation Support] The pain.....
To: autoeroticasphyxiat ionsupport@ yahoogroups. com
Date: Tuesday, October 14, 2008, 1:36 AM

Hi everyone,

I haven't written in quite a while but I have been reading. I'm so
sorry to the new people....I know your pain and shock.
I lost my husband Dec. 2/07 he was 38. What a shock...a friend found
him in the house. This month is our wedding anniversary. It would
have been 15 years. I can't imagine getting through that day! And I
can't stop thinking about it. I just want him and our lives back. I
know that won't happen but I still pray for a miracle or for me to wake
from this horrible nightmare. Even though I love and miss him very
much...I still have anger for what he did. Will this ever get any
easier. I am on meds and I do see a therapist... but sometimes talking
to someone who has been through it....is the best!! Any advice???

Take care and I think of you all.

Tuck

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