From my experience, that initial excruciating pain that became part of my every
waking and sleeping moments did eventually ease.   I became accustomed to living
with the pain and even though it has eased, I am aware that the horror of losing
my precious husband will never leave me.  Time has played a major part in the
healing process.  I never thought that it would.  I am sure that your feelings
of anger towards your husband are normal and fully understandable.  I hope that
in the future those feelings will cease and are no longer of   concern to you. 
I never felt anger towards my husband, I felt so very sorry for him.  He did not
mean to leave me and would never have wanted me to find him in the way that I
did.  I'm so very sorry that you are in this terrible situation.  Take care
--- On Tue, 10/14/08, tuck_1964 <tuck_1964@...> wrote:

From: tuck_1964 <tuck_1964@...>
Subject: [Autoerotic Asphyxiation Support] The pain.....
To: autoeroticasphyxiationsupport@yahoogroups.com
Date: Tuesday, October 14, 2008, 1:36 AM






Hi everyone,

I haven't written in quite a while but I have been reading. I'm so
sorry to the new people....I know your pain and shock.
I lost my husband Dec. 2/07 he was 38. What a shock...a friend found
him in the house. This month is our wedding anniversary. It would
have been 15 years. I can't imagine getting through that day! And I
can't stop thinking about it. I just want him and our lives back. I
know that won't happen but I still pray for a miracle or for me to wake
from this horrible nightmare. Even though I love and miss him very
much...I still have anger for what he did. Will this ever get any
easier. I am on meds and I do see a therapist... but sometimes talking
to someone who has been through it....is the best!! Any advice???

Take care and I think of you all.

Tuck


















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