Don't feel like you are the only new "widow" dealing with this...and
it's been 5 months since my husband "lost the game" Please remember
that if any wife or mother had this occur in thier life, that yea we
feel like we are loosing it mentally. Then there are days where it is
more bearable, a good memory will make you smile, or your kids will
make you laugh. In those brief moments we forget the agony our hearts
are in. Please think about see a Dr. in psychology. Maybe your
fighting depression and man, that's hard to deal with, but I hate
Dr's and have to admit that this one found an antidepressant where I
at least attempt to do more everyday, (sometimes the reality creeps
in and wins, and I retreat to by bed). But still come back to face
another day. If you like music I need to hear "let it be" by the
Beatles, plus other songs that encourage that one day I'll have the a
chance to find peace. Peace and courage to you and remember you are
not alone!
lp
--- In autoeroticasphyxiationsupport@yahoogroups.com, "tuck_1964"
<tuck_1964@...> wrote:
>
> Hi Everyone,
>
> I can't believe its been 2 months. It seems like yesterday I
kissed
> and hugged my husband good-bye before work. I think I am at the
stage
> where the shock is slowly wearing off and a little reality is
setting
> in, and I don't mind saying I am SCARED. I don't know when I will
ever
> be ready to face the truth. I still want to believe its a bad
> nightmare and I will wake up to him. When I have to say the
> words "widow", I wonder who I am talking about. When I look at my
> husband's death certificate I wonder who is that. Have you all
went
> through this? My sanity is still very much in question. I do see
a
> good therapist and while I'm there I can cope, but coming home to
the
> empty feeling is still unbearable. God please tell me one day this
> incredible pain will not be so consuming. Do you think we suffer
more
> because of the way it happened? If anyone wants to talk please,
please
> let me know.
>
> Thinking of you all.
>