I believe I sent you a message yesterday and hoped you read it. The
beginning is so,so,so very hard and you are the one left picking up
the pieces. All I can say is it's been nearly 4.5 months now. And to
those I trust, have told the truth. The others, something wrong with
his heart.

My boys found their Dad, plus I had to call family to get to my home
since I was at least 3 hours away on a business trip and had to get
someone to my house to help with all the BS.), so they know the
truth. Please remember in the end it was an ACCIDENT, neither one of
our husbands knew the outcome, and I am sure if they had would they
would not have played.

Please thinking about someone you trust to let out the real cause, I
had to, after a dear freind compared it too loosing her parents back
to back, within in 6 months of one another;and her trying to compare
her grief to mine. (You know and I know this is not possible.) It
took her 6 weeks, to get back to office so why or how could I need
all this time. So,I trusted my instincs, and told her. Then she
felt guilty for pressing so hard. I told her not to feel that way,
but i needed to relief of the added stress. By her knowing the truth,
it shed a completly different light on how she looked at MY situation
and each person's dealing with grief is different.

Please keep in touch with the group or email me any time, this
website has been a God send for me...and even if I do not respond to
all on this site that have replyed to me...words cannot express my
gratitude for your "listening". To hear from those that are dealing
with the same type of death of a loved one...made me feel not so
alone; and hope to have the hydration in my eyes to respond to those
who spoke to me directly, to give my thanks there too...if
not...Thanks and may God bless you who belive in him, and rays of
light and hope surround us all. --lost in her tunnel..Linda




--- In autoeroticasphyxiationsupport@yahoogroups.com, "tuck_1964"
<tuck_1964@...> wrote:
>
> I am sorry for the reasons that everyone is here however I am
really
> glad I found you.
>
> I lost my husband Dec. 07,to AeA- what a shock. I am still trying
to
> cope with the surprising fact that this was happening and the
horrible
> reality of him being gone. I have two young daughters 11 & 10 and
they
> do not know the truth, actually no one does. I decided after
finding
> out what happened to keep it a secret. Is this Hard YES but I feel
I
> have made the right decision. The investigator on the scene helped
me
> come up with a sconario that would be believable to family and
> friends. Anyone who knew my husband would tell you he died of a
Brain
> Anurism.
>
> I have been desperately searching for others to talk with, as this
type
> of death is common but rarely spoken about.
>
> I need help to make it through one more day. Please share any
insight
> or advice that you may have.
>
> Many Thanks
>