I lost Patrick to AeA a little over a year ago. He and I now have a 5
month old son who is the best thing that ever happened to me. I miss
Patrick so much! And it took me almost a year to decide to get back out
there and try dating again. I met a guy who loves both Ian (Patrick and
my son) and I. He is very understanding of the whole situation. Which I
never thought in a million years that I would find.
I still have reservations as to how to let go. I know I do not have to,
but I have pictures of Patrick all over my apartment. I CAN NOT take
them down. My new boyfriend has not said anything in reference to them,
but I in some way feel bad about having them up. Everything in me tells
me to leave them there. But for his sake, I feel like I am not doing my
new boyfriend justice by leaving them up. Do I take them down? Leave
them? If I am to take them down, how am I not to feel like I am doing
an injustice to Patricks memory? I will always have a picture of him up
for Ian to see, but I have several. I don't know what to do.