and although I know it has gotten easier, this is just so hard. when
our baby girl was born his thing was wanting to hear her voicee. she
was 2 months when he died. now she's talkin up a storm and he's not
here to listen to her. he's missed out on SO much. she has gotten so
big. she's such a sweet heart. I just wish she could've gotten to know
him, he was such a wonderful daddy. I still cry every night, the pain
is still so hoorrible. I thought it would stop. god I just miss him so
much. everything about him. I'm so tired of doing EVERYTHING on my own.
it just wasn't supposed to be like this. I want to be the me I used to
be. I want to be happy again. I want to have hopes and dreams again. I
want my life back. just wanted to vent I guess, sorry guys.