Dear Scott,

I greatly feel your grief and loss at this tragic event. Please let
me assure you this had nothing to do with you or your being "good
enough" I had the same thoughts and feelings 2 1/2 years ago when my
husband of 25 years did the same thing but from a rafter in the
garage. Our then 15 year old son found him and has been having
problems ever since. I'm sure he loved you very much but this was a
psychological addiction he just couldn't control. This is very hard
to talk about I know. Please feel free to contact me if I can help.

Diane


--- In autoeroticasphyxiationsupport@yahoogroups.com, Scott Kaplan
<zombywoof1028@...> wrote:
>
> pls call 6464276721 i have some answers scot
> --- autoeroticasphyxiationsupport@yahoogroups.com
> <jjochen@...> wrote:
> > On the morning of October 28th 2005 , I found my
> husband of 10 years
> > dead in our brand new home in the closet in my
> daughter's room. We
> > had not moved in yet thank god. He was naked and in
> a sitting
> > position on the floor, he had his shirt wrapped
> around his head and
> > the rope on top of that going up to the attic
> rafters . He had been
> > there for a while because when I touched him I
> remember thinking how
> > cold and hard he felt. the only reason I knew it was
> him was I could
> > see his mumps innoculation scar on his shoulder and
> the freckles on
> > his back. I loved my husband DESPERETLY and am
> confused and a wreck
> > over why he did this. The things I do know are that
> he was hooked on
> > drugs, cocaine to be specific and he had been
> drinking and using
> > that night. the police said that this was not the
> first time he had
> > done this, because they found a bag with short
> lengths of rope in it
> > tied into knooses. I know that we were having a
> hard time that last
> > year , he was a VERY successful site foreman for a
> very large
> > construction company. He was very smart and was
> also ADHD and
> > dyslexic. I had been dealing with his hangups for
> years, and would
> > never have left him not for a million dollars . We
> were not devient
> > people , we had regular normal even boring sex. Sex
> for us was more
> > like being close and talking than sex. So I dont
> understand this
> > thing that he did!! Where did he find out about it
> ?? How does
> > someone like him discover this thing??
> >
> > I have two beautiful children who were 6 and 7 when
> he died and I
> > told them daddy fell off a ladder!! How do I ever
> tell them that
> > daddy chose this THING over us!! Why wasnt I good
> enough?? does
> > anyone know?? All i can do these days is cry,
> (always at night and
> > by myself) I miss him so, he was my best friend,
> someone I have
> > known ALL my life.
> >
> >
> >
> >
>
>
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