Oh sweet darlin I swear to you with everything I hold true it was NOT
your fault. I dont get it myself but I DO know it was my sons most
fervent wish was to live. To Love. To give me grandchildren (mostly
cause I threatened him with black candles if I didnt get one soon!).
All these people Loved life, they Loved us. Its the only truth I
believe. It was a total screw up and it was selfish to do it in a risky
manner but Sweetheart it was NOT our fault they did.

I'll light a candle tonight for clarity and healing. If you can get a
piece of obsidian call an Apache Tear. It will help with your greiving.

Namaste
Tam