Hi Molly,
I'm so sorry that you lost your father this way. It is so hard to
understand. I lost my husband 4 years ago. My children and I still have
anger toward him and at how senseless his death was. I can understand your
feelings toward your mothers decision to hide it from you, but speaking as a
mother, if my kids hadn't been present and witnessed his death scene, I
might have done the same to them. Try not to be too hard on her...it was a
tough time. Her decisions were probably made in a very confused state of
mind. I believe she was just trying to protect you and your sister, and
perhaps preserve your dad's integrity in your eyes. I would have done
ANYTHING to keep my kids from experiencing this! Losing their dad would
have been painful and sad, but knowing these details has put a very bitter
and "uncomfortable" twist to his loss. I wish they could remember him with
pride and talk about the good things he stood for. That has sadly been lost
with the truth of how he died. How old were you? Were you close to your
father?
Charlotte

----- Original Message -----
From: "Molly Cushing" <cushingme@...>
To: <autoeroticasphyxiationsupport@yahoogroups.com>
Sent: Friday, June 02, 2006 10:13 PM
Subject: [Autoerotic Asphyxiation Support] Hello


> Hello, I just found out that my father died of AeA. He has been gone
> for 8 years. My mother hid it from my sister and I until we both
> started having problems that could have been related to seeing him do
> something in relation to AeA. I am confused and VERY angry. I also
> found out that the entire town knew about my father's real cause of
> death due to the attending doctor and EMT having big mouthes. I am
> angry at my mother for risking someone else telling us and making the
> decision that it was better for us not to know, even though we were
> both adults. I am also angry at my father for allowing this to happen
> and for cutting his life short in the prime of his life.
> ~M
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