Hi Jimmy,


> I received a Basic LOC cd as a gift several years ago and all I
want to do
> is to let it run without sending me into giant panic attacks .. I
am *terrified
> *that it will hurt my physical body .. I am aware (sort of) that
this is
> backward, but, nonetheless, it is driving me to serious craziness.
> Unfortunately, all attempts at healing (eft, tat, lots of others)
do the
> same thing. I have become desperate to have some relief .. i cant
even
> sleep without the panic attacks now.
> I cannot even *read* the formulae without the same panic situation
occuring
> and it doesn't go away quickly.

It sounds to me as though you have a safety issue.
often the subconscious mind keeps you away from what might heal
because it is afarid of whta might happen if you start to heal.

- It could be afraid of what might be "uncovered" in the healing
process.
- It could be afraid of who you would become if you were healed.
- It could be afraid of some other specific thing special to you.

I would put any efforts (EFT, etc) into addressing this e.g.

"Even though I am afraid of what might happen if I start to heal,..."

"Even though I have a BIG reason for not wanting to do anything that
might heal me..."

"Even though a part of me doesn't want to heal,..."

"Even though it feels unsafe to do ANYTHING that might bring
healing,..."

Another way forward might be to tap the Side of Hand point while
looking at the CD, or the manual, or any other potential source of
healing which sends you into a panic.
Don't use any words or try to go in any particular direction.
Just sit and "be with" the materials while you tap, letting your mind
wander.
If this brings on anxiety or you want to focus on something, just say
the word "Safe" while you look at the materials and tap.

Do this for just a few seconds to start with - don't do it for a long
time if it feels uncomfortable.
Build up the time, doing it a little everyday.

I'd be interested how you get on with this.

Regards
Mary
EFT and AFT practitioner