DJ-
Thanku for being so nice and writing me. I get so mad I do all sorts of things
to me.

I have read the shack. It was hard and quite painful but I have an idea. Since u
mentioned u and your wife are going to read it again would u want to read it
together and email privately. I have to be honest with you I do not believe in
god. I am so mad at god for doing this to my son I can't see straight. If you r
comfortable could u share some of your experiences with me. I also suffer from
an Eating Disorder and what makes me so mad is that I try to find the help I
need but nothing exists. I can't take this anymore.

Thanku for listening

Jackie
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-----Original Message-----
From: DJ <bond32086@...>
Date: Tue, 03 Nov 2009 09:17:46
To: <angertoolbox@yahoogroups.com>
Subject: Re: [angertoolbox support group] Need help

I would very much like to speak with you Jackie..I can relate, though not as
tragic as your terrible loss, I have been there. I also have been with many
others in similar situations. I can't really tell you when and if things with
subside, I think there will always be a great measure of pain for you. The more
you love the greater the pain. There is a book I would like to recommend titled
"The Shack", it is a wonderful book and I read it just before my wife and I
started having our major issues. I only wished that I had read and understood it
in the way it was meat to be, rather then as a conversational topic. I am going
to reread it in the framework of my current situation. I will pray for you daily
and know the pain seems unbearable, but I pray it will relent for you. God Bless

--- On Tue, 11/3/09, kykysmom@... <kykysmom@...> wrote:


From: kykysmom@... <kykysmom@...>
Subject: [angertoolbox support group] Need help
To: "Anger site" <angertoolbox@yahoogroups.com>
Date: Tuesday, November 3, 2009, 8:55 AM


 



[Moderator comment: Jackie - I've never had any of the characteristics you
mention except for 'taking it out on myself.' I was extremely proficient at
engaging in self-abusive behavior, which was the basis of my four-decade long
depression. However, once I overcame that tendency, my severe depression left me
completely. I'm glad to learn that you also have a 3 y/o child, which I'm sure
gives great meaning to your life.]

I'm a very isolated person. The lonliness hurts and then I get mad and start
lashing out verbally. As a bereaved mom with my surviving 3 year old I have a
hard time going out in public. I do everything alone. The lonliness causes me to
do dumb things and I get very angry at myself. With a panic disorder and PtSD I
am like jeykel and hyde.

Do any of you suffer from the above and then take it out on yourself.

I am always mad at me as I have very high expectations.

Any suggestions would be appreciated.

Jackie
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