Quality! I cant focus on much since my accident (too long of a story to tell -
I died six times that nite n things r VERY different NOW) - I get caught up
in the NOW... Because I cant remember much about when I change thoughts/ideas -
At some point I started typin notes in my BlackBerry, Bot a really cool GPS and
have a Watch for the date n time.

Unfortunately, MY type of being in the now sux - I do nothing cuz I figure Im
gunna forget it anyway. Why bother putting out the effort n breaking a sweat
when Im gunna be soar or tired and generally forget why.

Im not playin Roulette any morr cuz I saw DeerHunter and, since my last wreck I
feel invincible, I dont wanna survive a big dent in the head again. And it'll
increase the odds on the game of 'Memory Lottery' that I dont win that often.

I have no regret, no hope and no attn span - So stay in bed till something in me
says get up -

Why Bother
Nway

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See I got Us all figured out, we're just a dying breed
Take me Im not much for living, I count the passing days
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--- On Fri, 1/16/09, annekir65 <annekir65@...> wrote:

> From: annekir65 <annekir65@...>
> Subject: [angertoolbox support group] Re: the truth
> To: angertoolbox@yahoogroups.com
> Date: Friday, January 16, 2009, 7:43 PM
> Hi there I just got to read your plea for help with your
> problem, I was
> with a lady last week who has so far helped me alot with
> feelings of
> resentment which turn into anger and continue to feel that
> way until i
> feel justice has been served, which as we all know is just
> plain silly
> and so I have taken her advice which has seemed to help me
> over the last
> few days. when I feel someone is talking about me I try to
> send out a
> positive image from me, the lady told me what I give out I
> will get back
> tenfold, so when a negative thought comes into my head I
> knock it
> straight out and think positive thoughts and really it
> works, also I try
> just stay in the now, because what has happened cannot be
> undone, and
> there is little point in looking back with regrets and
> looking to the
> future with fear is not good either so here in the now is
> the best place
> to be and deal with that as it comes because I know I
> cannot control the
> future so I can control the now to a certain degree. I hope
> I have
> helped you in some small way, always remember live in the
> now. Goodluck
> to you this comes to you with many Irish blessings !!!
> --- In angertoolbox@yahoogroups.com, "Dale"
> <dhdmidnight96@...> wrote:
> >
> > i post a lot about my relationship problems and
> mention my girlfriends
> > contribution to my anger but i gotta get honest. This
> is about me ,
> > when i get angry sometimes i get very mean i feel like
> i want the
> > person hurting or agrivating me to stop i panic and
> forget that im
> > dealing with someone i love and at times become very
> mean with my
> > actions and words and when its over typically im
> remorceful,very
> > remorceful. I want to learn to stop.I know i developed
> this hateful
> > rage as a child to deal with my mother but im real
> tired of playing
> > that escuse over and over in my mind i just want out.
> I want to be a
> > good, gentle,loving man who is not cursed with this
> vicious nastyness
> > in his heart but i need the tools or advice on how to
> start healing
> and
> > changing , someone please help.
> >
>
>
>
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