I read my mail this morning, 1/2 asleep still and not wanting to
start my day.lol...........but when i came back i wanted to share,
while i go through my journey...lol...seems "it" does get easier when
you have something familiar to do.

I was thinking it was denial, but learned something this week.

My aunt got diagnosed with bladder cancer, and my "nurse" sister
jumps to the conclusion it is time for her to take care of things. I
told her, Id wait for the family to see what they want to do, and not
go through what we did with our dad. Well, naturally, I have not
heard back from her. It was part of an opening for us to readdress
our behavior, but she didn't take the bate.....lol.

Anyway, 2 weeks now, and the progresses sounds good. The family
didn't panic and try to fix her "now". I used to think, maybe i was
in denial and couldn't help my dad the "right" way, and then learned,
these things take time, and education. My aunt got a second opinion
and her family is good with that. Now I will have to call her and
get it first hand how things are going.

I'm dieing to tell/share with my family, but Ive already told two of
them, "I'm not repeating what happen with Ray".........and they just
stick their head in the sand. (perhaps they are processing?????)
Don't know and don't care.

I just think it is interesting and sad, that i tried to do what i
felt good about (had the discussion with my parents, education and a
plan in place for this time) , and by going along with the "masses" I
messed myself up (my sister appointed herself the facilitator and
they seemed to go along.)

Been there, done that, and remembered the lessons of the first time a
family member dies.

I realize this might not make sense to a lot of people, but I will
feel in the details if anyone wants to continue on this subject