Neil,
It really comes down to a decision that you have to make. You have decide when
to quit. Do you quit now while you still have some health and wealth or do you
wait until it is all gone and you are living under a bridge in a cardboard box
or in an assylum or jail for life. It doesn't get any better from here. It only
gets worse. I've been in your shoes and I know where you are headed. I've been
almost to the point of living under a bridge and I've done the jail time and my
health is bad because of alcohol. It's your choice guy. If you choose to get
involved in the program of AA then get really involved. Get a sponsor,work the
steps, get a big book and read it.--- In anewbeginning2@yahoogroups.com, "Neil"
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> Thanks all for your responses, very good info from you all, I am not sure what
it is I am looking for, I know I have all of the materials in front of me, I
know how to stay sober, but do I really really want it again, I unfortunately
feel I never reached my bottom, I know that is " BS " because I do really want
to stay sober, I am in "denial" I know it !!I some time don't give a shit, until
I suffer the after math, puking blood, shitting blood (soory to gross you out),
kidneys feel like shit all day no matter how much water I drink, I went to see
an Addiction counseler, he ordered blood work, all of my tests came back great,
good for me, but now I am thinking "hey nothing is really wrong", but from the
seed that was planted, I know deep in my heart (which I know is going bad) that
I need to quit, but don't know how, or won't admit I know how. Thanks for all
of you, thanks for being sober for me. Has anyone gone to rehab, and what kind
do you recommend ??
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