Hey Neil, I 'm Lewie, I have been in recovery for 21 1/2 yrs. I went to a
rehab and I believe that it was the only way for me to get sober at that
time. Rehab is good and I recommend it . But it sounds like you have a
choice to make that only you can make. You can go to meetings and ask for
help from the old timers , go to rehab or go back out and drink some more
until you are sure . I know that I was ready to get sober because I couldn't
live like I was anymore.
Give sobriety a chance. Try staying sober for 6 months. If your life isn't
any better after 6 months then you can go back to all the pain and misery.
Its free you can have it back.. Lewie

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From: Neil
Date: 4/15/2009 10:10:17 PM
To: anewbeginning2@yahoogroups.com
Subject: [A New Beginning] letting go




Thanks all for your responses, very good info from you all, I am not sure
what it is I am looking for, I know I have all of the materials in front of
me, I know how to stay sober, but do I really really want it again, I
unfortunately feel I never reached my bottom, I know that is " BS " because
I do really want to stay sober, I am in "denial" I know it !!I some time don
t give a shit, until I suffer the after math, puking blood, shitting blood
(soory to gross you out), kidneys feel like shit all day no matter how much
water I drink, I went to see an Addiction counseler, he ordered blood work,
all of my tests came back great, good for me, but now I am thinking "hey
nothing is really wrong", but from the seed that was planted, I know deep in
my heart (which I know is going bad) that I need to quit, but don't know how
or won't admit I know how. Thanks for all of you, thanks for being sober
for me. Has anyone gone to rehab, and what kind do you recommend ??





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