Thanks all for your responses, very good info from you all, I am not sure what
it is I am looking for, I know I have all of the materials in front of me, I
know how to stay sober, but do I really really want it again, I unfortunately
feel I never reached my bottom, I know that is " BS " because I do really want
to stay sober, I am in "denial" I know it !!I some time don't give a shit, until
I suffer the after math, puking blood, shitting blood (soory to gross you out),
kidneys feel like shit all day no matter how much water I drink, I went to see
an Addiction counseler, he ordered blood work, all of my tests came back great,
good for me, but now I am thinking "hey nothing is really wrong", but from the
seed that was planted, I know deep in my heart (which I know is going bad) that
I need to quit, but don't know how, or won't admit I know how. Thanks for all
of you, thanks for being sober for me. Has anyone gone to rehab, and what kind
do you recommend ??