Hey Neil, Do you have a sponsor,a home group, a Big book, If you do then
read the books, go to meetings and pray. I have been sober for over 21 yrs(
but who is counting) lol. you need to get involved in your home group. Love
Lewie

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From: Neil
Date: 4/7/2009 10:00:43 PM
To: anewbeginning2@yahoogroups.com
Subject: [A New Beginning] letting go




hey everyone, I was part of this group for a while, but have been just
lurking for a long time. I need help/suggestions. I got sober 14 Aug 2003,
stayed sober for 1 year 1 month and 19 days (not that I was counting or
anything LOL), then played that revolving door thin for a while and then got
sober again for 359 days (again not counting or anything LOL) all with AA, I
got sober in Germany (affliated w/military) and it was a good group, alot of
people I really miss and most I don't, my time in the rooms unfortunatly
semed to me that no one gave a shit about anyone but themselves, no one
ever" called me and wanted to know how I was doing if I was not at a meeting
it is not a case of PMS (poor me syndrom), fast forward, I moved back to
the states in 2006, and found out where all the meetings where in my little
city, I got involved right away, and bam, same shit different group, no one
called me, it seemed like no one cared, they were all in their own little
world, I have been searching for so long, I am so tired of searching, I know
all of the stuff on HOW to stay sober, hell I could teach someone how to
stay sober, i just can't figure it out anymore, I am only a 6-8 pack a night
drinker, I don't think about it during the day until almost quitting time,
and then that is all I think about, so there goes all of my morning prayers,
and off to drinking I go. Please help! just can't figure out what to do, I
was thinking about maybe out-patient rehab, can't afford to stay out of work
for in patient rehab, not to mention my work would let me go if I did go
in-patient. Thanks for letting mr babble, thanks for being here





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