hey everyone, I was part of this group for a while, but have been just lurking
for a long time. I need help/suggestions. I got sober 14 Aug 2003, stayed sober
for 1 year 1 month and 19 days (not that I was counting or anything LOL), then
played that revolving door thin for a while and then got sober again for 359
days (again not counting or anything LOL) all with AA, I got sober in Germany
(affliated w/military) and it was a good group, alot of people I really miss and
most I don't, my time in the rooms unfortunatly semed to me that no one gave a
shit about anyone but themselves, no one "ever" called me and wanted to know how
I was doing if I was not at a meeting, it is not a case of PMS (poor me
syndrom), fast forward, I moved back to the states in 2006, and found out where
all the meetings where in my little city, I got involved right away, and bam,
same shit different group, no one called me, it seemed like no one cared, they
were all in their own little world, I have been searching for so long, I am so
tired of searching, I know all of the stuff on HOW to stay sober, hell I could
teach someone how to stay sober, i just can't figure it out anymore, I am only a
6-8 pack a night drinker, I don't think about it during the day until almost
quitting time, and then that is all I think about, so there goes all of my
morning prayers, and off to drinking I go. Please help! just can't figure out
what to do, I was thinking about maybe out-patient rehab, can't afford to stay
out of work for in patient rehab, not to mention my work would let me go if I
did go in-patient. Thanks for letting mr babble, thanks for being here