Dear Red's,

Thank you for posting your message. I am glad I have once again
reached someone out there. Well I am doing just 'okay', trying to
get through everyday. but within my location I am still trying to
find where I can do something worth while. Though I must tell you
that the other night was hard to get through... I mean I didn't know
if I was going to make it, as I struggled to even get to sleep.
As per usual I was alone in my apartment. I feel as though i am
needing a truckload of hope. Anyways have to go heaps of hugs.. chat
laters - Deb.
--- In anewbeginning2@yahoogroups.com, rednek53 <no_reply@...> wrote:
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> Hi Deb...
> It has been a while since you posted..and the same for me too.
> I hope I am catching you doing well..I know what your talking
about
> when so called friends don't seem to understand where you coming
> from..This is a time to reach out to others in recovery..are there
> meetings near you? All I know is..never give up..your not alone as
> long as you have the internet..People in the same situation as you
> and I...I know when ever I really need to talk..I can get on line
and
> find someone to chat with.. My life has been up and down..and
latley
> it has been wonderful..But..I am still having bad days..mainly
> because of my own addictive behaviors. I am now going in to see a
> councelor starting tuesday..You need to find something to do to
get
> you out of you...helping others in need for recovery is what keeps
me
> going..I always seem to find someone who is searching for a way
> out..We are never alone if their are others like us out there...I
do
> hope your doing well snd I sorry it took me a while to get back to
> you...So..I am still here hangingin there....Mike
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> --- In anewbeginning2@yahoogroups.com, "the_slayer_1700"
> <the_slayer_1700@> wrote:
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> > Dear Red's,
> >
> > Hi. Wow it's been so long since I have done this. Recently I
went
> > through a traumatic event, have had to move to a new
neighbourhood
> > and my old friends seem like we are no longer in the same world.
> > Tragic? YESSSSS. And I constantly keep telling myself to hang in
> > there and is it easy... NNOOOOO. So I have been trying to get
out
> of
> > my house everyday and come up and click through emails to be at
> > least able to stay in touch with other understanding humans. And
> now
> > I am living alone.. that too. Sometimes I think it is bliss and
> some
> > other times I think it is stagnant. And then it gets me thinking
> > about it. But anyways I hope your life improves. But Stay in
Touch.
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> > Deb.
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> > --- In anewbeginning2@yahoogroups.com, rednek53 <no_reply@>
wrote:
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> > > Hi Deb. sorry for not posting sooner...I really thought some
one
> > > would.Sorry to hear about the home stead. Its been pretty bad
> here
> > > too ..well not for me but the people who have home on the
> Kankakee
> > > river south of me. The river has beena t flood stage for so
many
> > > weeks now.. My girl friens house has done pretty good ..she
had
> > > trouble with some basement flooding. but its been doing pretty
> > > good..Hang in there and remember this is a test..and you will
get
> > > thru it all right..Love ya and hang in there...Mike
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> > > > I'm in the process of trying to keep my home - a single wide
> > with an
> > > > addition - from falling the rest of the way off it's piers -
> and
> > the
> > > > river will hit flood stage sometime this morning! Odd
timing -
> > but
> > > in
> > > > the last 2 weeks I've had an engineer and the local
> > Weatherization
> > > rep
> > > > tell me that I should've called FEMA in 2006. I had to
explain
> > that
> > > > since so many people lost everthing they had my problems
seems
> > like
> > > > nothing. They told me me that once my home falls I, too,
will
> > have
> > > > lost everything! I only need it stay up until April or May
> when
> > it
> > > > gets dry enough to have it jacked up and re-leveled. The
only
> > > reason I
> > > > can afford to have that done is that one of the men has
> offered
> > to
> > > > work free because he says he owes my father at least that
much
> > (Good
> > > > thing my Dad's a great guy!)
> > > >
> > > > It is so easy to be grateful and remember that while we
don't
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> > > > get what we want, we do get what we need. This past 2 years
> > I've
> > > been
> > > > focused on the fact that, while my life has changed
> drastically,
> > my
> > > > needs are met. Will I be able to maintain such a noble
> attitude
> > if
> > > I
> > > > lose everything? I don't know... Right now I'm busy praying
> > that I
> > > am
> > > > not tested.
> > > >
> > > > My trailer isn't much, but its mine. It's paid for, and most
> > > > importantly, I can afford to live there!
> > > >
> > > > Whatever happens, I always remember that nothing is so bad
that
> a
> > > > drink won't make it worse - so I'll be fine. NO - I be
okay!
> > (we
> > > all
> > > > know what FINE means!)
> > > >
> > > > Hope it's not raining where you are!
> > > >
> > > > ODAT
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> > > > Deb K
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